In the Into the Woods musical that the boys participated in over the last few weeks, there is a song called "No More". In it one of the characters is trying to decide whether to run away from all of his troubles or stand and fight. He wants to give up. He wants the giants to go away. He wants to live his life without conflict and war and strife.
That's how I feel right now. Running away. From everything.
No more braces on the feet of my little son. No more screams and cries as we tighten the straps. No more judge's saying no. No more little boys dying in cribs alone. No more three year olds weighing 11 pounds. No more transfers. No more.
That's just how I feel right now.
I know that tomorrow will be a new day. I know that Aaron's feet will eventually adapt to his new braces and the pain he is experiencing will eventually pass. I know that there are judges all over the world who ARE saying yes and I know that God can move the mountain that stands in front of the Davis, Moreno and Hook families to enable this judge to also say yes. I know that there are hundreds and hundreds of little boys and girls who are being taken out of the cribs and carried into families.
I know that not every child in every orphanage weighs 11 lbs. I know that transfer doesn't always spell doom.
I know too that God has given me so much.