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Monday, November 8, 2010

Another Lost Boy

     Transferred.  Gavin has been transferred.  We asked for a child off the Angel Tree who was close to being transferred because we wanted to do what we could to hold back the tide but it washed over us.  I cried like a baby last night when I received word.  They are trying to discover where he was moved.  Thankfully he is still available for adoption.  Poor little Gavin.  He was in a good orphanage where he was well-loved.  He was a favorite.  I know his nannies cried when they dressed him and led him down to the car to take him to the place of no return.  I know it hurt them deeply to say goodbye.  He was their happy little blonde hair, blue-eyed baby.  I just can't even find the words for how I feel at this point.  I'm grieving. 

     Last night I tucked my littlest into his bed, with Pooh Bear under the covers next to him.  I kissed his little cheeks over and over.  I put my hand on his cute little blonde head and prayed for him.  He doesn't know I'm praying so he is talking as I am praying.  He is telling me about Ben and Elijah and other whatnot that I cannot understand.  We are both whispering words.  My words are words of thankfulness that he is mine.  My words are blessings and prayers of hope that He will grow up to love with all his heart, soul and mind the God who has kept and cared for him since birth.  Intermixed with my words are his little boy words of brothers and toys and Papa and computers.  His words are happy.  He is content under those covers with Mama kissing and praying for him.  He has much to share even though I don't understand.  He sleeps easily and before I am done, he is quiet and close to slumber.  I kissed him again and began to cry and pray for the little boys who don't have Pooh Bears and a Papa and big brothers who toss them into the air.  I wept for Brady and Heath and Gavin.  Dear Gavin.  Another Lost Boy.  My heart longs to see them receive what my dear little Aaron has been given.   A family.  A home.  Hope.  A chance to grow up to love God with all their hearts, souls and minds. 

     Jeremiah 29:11-14: 
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.
Then you will call on me and come and pray to me,
and I will listen to you.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
 I will be found by you,” declares the LORD,
“and will bring you back from captivity.
I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”








7 comments:

  1. My friends,

    I immediately thought of Luke chapter 7 verses 1-10. God placed this on my heart to send to you. Have faith, don't lose hope. As my dear bloggie friend Kathie once stated, it has to be really dark for us to see the stars. But we know God is in the dark places, even if our own eyes can't see it. Have hope, have faith. Hang on to God, He is working, in His time, not ours.

    Love wins,
    Renee

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  2. I am sorry that these beautiful little children are facing such an awful future. I know your heart is broken by hearing about Gavin's transfer. I thank God that you were able to rescue Aaron. He looks so much a part of your family - even looks like his brothers! God bless you, for all you are doing and trying to do.

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  3. I'm praying for Gavin also. Lifting him up, and asking God to hold him in his hand.

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  4. oh, that breaks my heart. I hope that they will find him, and that he will find a family.

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  5. I have tears in my eyes as I read this (a habit with this blog!). I will pray for Gavin. Thank goodness Aaron has you -- and that you all have Aaron!

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  6. Oh this just brought on the tears! I can't imagine how this feels for you - knowing first hand what Gavin is facing right now. I pray that your honesty through this process and your fight for these children will result in more awareness, more understanding, and more people getting involved.

    PS: It was lovely meeting you Saturday!

    Brooke
    www.theannessafamily.blogspot.com

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  7. My heart breaks for lost and hurting children everywhere. Give the love that you have!

    Luke 6:30 Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”

    God is Good. We will pray for these precious children.

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