Please?
Are you my mother?
Are you the mother who will gasp in shock when she sees my picture for the first time? The one who will know that I am hers even though she has never held me or touched me?
Are you my mother?
Are you the one who will work around the clock to fill out endless piles of paper so you can adopt me?
The one who will plow through the house finding things to sell and who will sit up late into the night making crafts and baked goods so that I can come home?
The one who will beg for donations from every man, woman and child she meets so that she can raise the money to cover my adoption expenses?
Are you the one who will rush crazily around the house washing windows and vacuuming floors so that when the social worker arrives, the house will pass inspection?
The one who will cry and weep at night thinking about me over here?
The one who will mourn that I am not at her table and that I am not safe in bed at night in her house?
The one who won't be overwhelmed at my medical issues but will trust that God will help her care for me?
The one who can no longer look at other children without thinking about me and who is forever talking about me to everyone who will listen?
The one who wonders how big I am as she wanders through the stores, picking out outfits for my closet and imagining me inside those clothes?
The one who spends much of her time on her knees before the Lord praying over every single piece of paper that is needed for my adoption, that they will pass all the endless inspections required?
The one who panics that they are just not going to be able to raise the money needed to come get me?
The one who is having her faith stretched beyond all human understanding that God will provide everything she needs to bring me home?
(help - I have already been transferred)
The one who carries my picture around in her wallet?
The one who loves me even when I am not at my best?
The one who counts down the months, weeks, days and minutes until she can come get me?
The one who yells like she has gone mad when she receives the Golden Ticket that means my paperwork gets to cross the ocean to my country?
(help - I've already been transferred)
The one who waits with no patience for the date when she can come get me?
The one who cries out for protection for the ones she is leaving behind as she boards a plane to my country?
Please?
Are you my mother?
Are you the Mommy who longs to walk into my world, my room, my life and hold me close to your heart?
(help - I've already been transferred)
Are you my mother? Are you the Mommy I long for every single day of my life?
Please - Are you my mother?
I so very much want a mother.
I am lost without you.
ALL THE CHILDREN ON THIS PAGE CAN BE FOUND ON THE 'AT RISK' PAGE AT REECE'S RAINBOW. THEY ALL HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH AN EXTRA CHROMOSOME AND THEY ALL FACE TRANSFER TO A MENTAL INSTITUTE IF THEY ARE NOT ADOPTED SOON.
SADLY....
SOME OF THEM HAVE ALREADY BEEN TRANSFERRED!!
You captured every feeling I have felt over the last 6 months. This is so beautifully written, thank you for loving these little kiddos so much. You have a wonderful heart.
ReplyDeleteOh, how I can relate to everything you posted here. We have 2 girls, one with HIV, that we are in process of adopting. My fear now is that someone will get to them first! They are from Aaron's country and we are not allowed to ask for them until we are in country apparently. To have all of these feelings in your heart for a child(ren) and then someone else becomes their Mommy. I pray it isn't so. Trusting the Lord to see us through...
ReplyDeleteYou are truly a mother that has experienced all of those feelings. You have captured it perfectly! Praise God for people like you!
ReplyDeleteMy little man Alexander is on the list. It broke my heart when I read his bio to see that not one, not one person had ever inquired about him. How can that be? My heart aches for this children. We are too old to adopt yet I know the rewards of adopting. We adopted 3 children, all with disabilities 20+ years ago. I pray every child will get a forever home. Hugs
ReplyDeleteSurely my friend the Lord will use these words and these PRECIOUS faces to call to those who will GO.
ReplyDeleteThank you for being their voice.
Love, love, love,
Holly from Purpose Driven Family
Those feelings that you expressed as a mother longing for her child is exactly what I am feeling today. Thank you so much for sharing this:)
ReplyDeletePraying this morning that the parents of these families will overcome the fear of adoption and the fear of a special needs child....dear Jesus, I pray that the busyness of the families will halt and that these children will find their family. That the families will HEAR your voice that they will step out of the boat and follow your call....we rebuke fear in the name of Jesus. Let them do it!!!! Amen.
ReplyDeleteStephanie
Terrific post. I share your heart!! I've just recently added a bunch of these kids to one of my blog pages as well. Praying them home!
ReplyDeleteYou are stewarding who He made you to be, Julie, when you write these things!! He is pleased and at work! Love you and yours!! : )
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