Fumes

That is currently what we are running on.... Seriously.  The trips up and down the road to Philly every week along with our already hectic schedule have just plain caught up to both of us.  Weariness has set in.  The boys are in a combination of TWO drama productions. Over the next four weeks we face two solid weeks of tech practices, a whole mess of other practices to boot and three full weekends of shows.  On top of that we are both frantically writing history curriculum before the spring homeschooling conventions start.  I'm teaching at the Co-op, we are homeschooling the boys and we are just plain tired.  I want to stop the bus.   I want to get through Aaron's casting process - I want to bypass the every single night a week schedule - I want to disappear the to-do list. I want time to be a family.   Life is too short to keep spinning without taking time to stop and enjoy the view.  In two short years my firstborn is going to be gone.  I can't stand the thought. 

In the midst of all the craziness of our current schedule - the frantic scurrying - the fight to preserve precious times with those we love - we are trying not to ignore the cry of those who have no voice.  I never want to fill my days in such a way that I am too busy to care, too tired to grieve and too overcome to advocate.  I want to speak out for the Jonah's of this world.  Little lost boys and girls who are doomed to a lifetime of loneliness and despair unless someone steps in. 

We are trying to find a balance.  Praying for wisdom.  Right now - just muddling through.